Puzzling over change.

One needn't turn hoary-headed to learn that the baton of life, has a way of showing up on our starting grids unannounced, requiring us to make life-changing decisions with no room for maneuvers. I have been contemplating a few incidences that i have to encounter. Thinking of moving to a totally new place is a bit scary. Moving from the comfort of familiar faces and things is sometimes hard to comprehend. But how that this fit into God's plan for me at the moment?

Dreams, Feelings , Intuitions,Visions, even Seers [prophets] have been known to sometimes fail particularly when it comes to trying to make sense of God's perfect will. All of these usually fail but Love! Today i watched as i let my son venture on his own far from my ever watchful eyes. He got on the bus (this will be about 5hrs drive without me). My feelings were in muddle. But i noticed, my baby has grown. He has evolved. He can do fine with other people (still missing him though, but i know he is fine). I just have to trust that even if i do not know how he is going to react once he gets there without me, God will watch over him.

Change will happen at one point . But it always brings with it uncertainity, confusion. When things go sour, many begin to wonder and ponder about those never-ending puzzles and even ask questions such as: Did God really rubber-stamp this decision, business, or venture in the first place?

Comprehending the above circumstantial dilemmas and a billion other nail-biting scenarios is man's life-long quest during his time here. Besides this has been responsible for why many have switched, hitched, or even ditched the existence of God. Ultimately the objective of these situations is to bring to light a self-discovery and acknowledgement of man's incapacitation minus God. [The evidence is all too glaring whether they are called the greatest,or the brainiest but absolutely powerless].

Finding out God's Will for one's life is still one relevant piece of life's maze man can't afford to continue

unresolved. And it is indeed true that our journey through life may necessitate that we quickly come to terms with the fact that God oftentimes wouldn't reveal His complete will unto us until the future has become the past. He might only give a glimpse to spur us on. Or even that indelible snapshot etched within our hearts!

This in no way causes a collision with our ambition to succeed as human beings. On the contrary, it is by understanding what true success means from God's perspective that living may then become truly meaningful.

Therefore, we can encounter loss, failure, pain, opposition, persecution, and more, and yet be smack-dab in the middle of God's perfect will for our lives. While we see only the difficulty of the moment, God sees the

effectiveness of the process.

So as i puzzle over change from what i am used to and look around for a new place, finding a new school for Hamlet and figuring out new things,  i have to trust that God will see me through this.

The Unspeakable

I have often  sought a  lonely spot to deal with distress and over and over i have come to realize that it is okay to want to pour out your heart.

God is our Father of intimate, loving compassion. That  very compassion invites the honesty that voices the unspeakable and brings healing. 
 

It’s all right—
questions, pain, and
stabbing anger
can be poured out to
the Infinite One and
He will not be damaged.

Our wounded ragings will be
lost in Him and
we
will
be
found.

For we beat on His chest
from within
the circle of His arms.

"Even now my witness is in heaven; my advocate is on high. My intercessor is my friend as my eyes pour out tears to God; on behalf of a man he pleads with God as a man pleads for his friend." —Job 16:19–21

"Therefore I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit, I will complain in the bitterness of my soul." —Job 7:11

I cry aloud to the LORD; I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy. I pour out my complaint before him; before him I tell my trouble. —Psalm 142:1–2

What is going on?

For the past months I have been thinking on what my next blog post will be about. Well, I still have no idea as I write this. So I will go ahead and see what I come up with.

To begin with, I have been frustrated. This is something I never thought I would openly blog about. But the way I have been feeling lately has not been pretty. Some elements have armed to make life miserable. But I am holding on.

I have been reading Job on and off. Can’t seem to understand that book. Job was commended as faithful. And reading his story, (which I haven’t finished yet) I can slowly understand why. But what is special about this story. The guy lost a lot. His family, his wealth and his health was not left intact as well. If I had to face all that, I would totally hate my life. 

So what lessons have I been learning? The last chapters show that Job was totally healed, his wealth became even more than before and he had 10 children (goes on to say that his daughters were the most beautiful in the land!) But wait a minute, I never before paused to think that he couldn’t have had all these things restored in a day. His wife couldn’t have carried 10 babies at once. This had to have taken a long time. Years of waiting on the Lord, this involved trust, patience and waiting even more.

What am I driving at? With all the frustration I am experiencing, it is going to stop some day. The bruises will totally heal. It may not be today. 

Getting on to another important update, My son, graduated from nursery school. I was over the moon with Joy. In my culture, people don’t usually cry with Joy, but that is how I felt. Just watching him present, watching him looking amazing. He is the most beautiful person I know. He sure made me proud. Every day I am thankful because even if I have failed in so many things, I have totally done something very right. I am raising a smart little man. 

For my friends that pray. Here are a few praises and prayers.

Praises for:

·         Hamlet’s completion of nursery school.

·         Safety as Hamlet goes to school and as I get to work (travel by boda bodas is a risk).

Prayers

·         I need to find a new place to shift to as soon as possible. Pray for God’s direction, provision and a beautiful, safe, clean place.

·         School for Hamlet for next year. Where to take him. 

·         For my mother. She is going through a hard time. 

·          Pray for the salvation of men, neighbors, family, workmates, acquaintances.

·         Safety on the road during this festive season as many people will be traveling.