Tuesday, 15 November 2011

"Teach Us To Love"

Lord, we thank Thee for all the love
that has been given to us, for the love
of family and friends, and above all
 for Your love poured out upon us every
moment of our lives in steadfast glory.

Forgive our unworthiness. Forgive the
many times we have disappointed those
who love us, have failed them, wearied
them, saddened them.
Failing them we have failed You,
and hurting them we have wounded our Saviour who for love's sake died for us.
Lord, have mercy on us, and forgive.

You do not fail those who love you.
You do not change nor vary.
Teach us Your own constancy in love.
Your humility, selflessness and generosity.

Look in pity on our small and tarnished loving, protect, foster and strengthen it, that it may be less unworthy to be offered to
You and to Your children.
O Light of the world, teach us how to love.

Thursday, 10 November 2011

Investing in things that matter most.

I have often wondered at the busy-ness of humanity. I experienced what it means to feel unwelcome. Do u ever get the feeling that someone would rather be alone than have u around them even for a short while. Often I am saddened at how busy (Martha style) we have become. We would rather spend time busy, comfortable than show love (Mary way) even for a short while. I love having friends come over to my small room, take a cup of tea, share stories and have a great laugh.  Often times, we are afraid that our jar of oil will run dry if we share the little left and we will lose our source of survival. This reminds me of Elijah and the poor widow. Look at this scenario:

One day a poor gaunt starving woman gave up something . She was weak from  lack of food. Her husband was dead and now her son was too weak to help. Her legs and arms were thin spindles and her face was bleak. There was a great depression and poverty had depleted her provisions. It was time to let hope die. They just had enough food for one scant meal. Then perhaps God  would be merciful and let them die. Meanwhile, weary, travel worn, hungry Elijah trudges into town from a long 100 mile walk through the burning sand. God sent him here. He has hope that God has everything organized and finally for the first time in nearly a year he will eat a nice warm meal cooked by human hands. He arrived and realized that God's provision happened to be an undernourished widow with and very hopeless. There must be a mistake here. When he asks for help from his appointed benefactor she tells him that she is at the bottom of the barrel and about to cook her funeral meal. If i was Elijah, I would have said: "Pardon me Madam, but I have obviously confused you with someone else. --Lord: How about a rich widow? How often the situations of life seem just the opposite of where we think God is leading. But she was willing to stop, think and be merry! How  ironic this might appear.

At times we make others feel  unwelcome, draining us of  our precious oil (time, resources,), consuming our space. If only we took time to love, to share, how wonderful it would be.

What a week.

This week has come with it’s challenges. It’s just so hard for me to have the joy I would wish for. Something ends up taking my joy.
There is fear I can’t tell the source from which it is coming.
I strongly need Strength from above.

Sunday saw my little boy with little strength (ill), so I rested Monday to make up for the long nite of constant wake-ups to tend to him.  
Tuesday would have been joyous had I not been disappointed by the guy who takes lunch for my boy. I called him 3 times and he assured me that he was thinking of my son and that he would take him lunch. I called at 3:30pm to check out, only to be told that he had forgotten to feed him. That was too much for me!!!! My poor little boy, recovering from illness and hungry too.

I totally need refreshing. I don’t know when it will come  but I badly need it. Wish i could be able to see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel.
Living with a lot of uncertainty is not cool.  Being Afraid of what to say, how to live, afraid of  how to feel.........

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

Love is all we need

In September i was blessed to travel to Tororo SMILE and i felt first hand what it means to love and to be loved.It was humbling for me. For the first time, i would be away from my son for two nites. something i had never done. It was a sacrifice i had to make. Love happens only if I am willing to give up something for another person. Leaving my son for 2 nights, was huge!!!

We traveled (Cassandra, Heather, Karen, Linda and Myself) to Tororo, thanks to Linda who drove us all the way.

That day I was able to overcome one of my greatest fear. I was always afraid of traveling across the Jinja bridge. It always gave me those shivers, like i would fall over. of course i never told any one i was with.

The Nile Bridge

We stopped at Good Shepherd's fold, a children's centre in Jinja for the underprivileged. We were amazed at how God is at work there. I was personally impressed by One of the girls there, she has got such a big heart and it shows. The way she was generally telling us about GSF; u could feel her passion. She is one of a kind.

One of the Children's facilities at GSF Jinja

On our way from GSF, we stopped by Kingfisher resort. The place is a beauty!!! Cassandra teased me that we would host my wedding there. Come to think of it, the idea is great.........

Pretty flowers at King fisher resort

Gardens at King fisher resort

We then rode on to Tororo, and it was great for me. Tororo has got memories for me as a child. i was there for 2 years. 1993-1994. so being back there was like revisiting some part of my life. i got to see the rock, the place one can not miss out once u are there. It lies there. being there. And my former school is just below the rock.

Cassandra and I. My school just a stone throw away.

I kept telling Heather and Cassandra each time we went on our balcony that " look, that's my school" and they would laugh.

The Tororo Rock

Then we got to go to SMILE where the kids are. My heart went out to them the moment i saw them. It was an overwhelming feeling of love. so many kids with big smiles, who want to be loved. i was able to play with some of them, and the baby room was lovely. i got to hold baby Logose and to put him to sleep.

Logose is the baby i was holding.

I made a new friend Andrew . He was with me all the time. I loved him instantly. It was a very strong feeling.

My friend Andrew and I

At the end of this trip, one thing was for sure, Love is all around. Love is all we need. Every one of us.